lonesome

funny how after you say to yourself,
"i have no friends",
4-5 friends visit you at work within the next week.

okay maybe i have friends(?). but we're not close anyways. just coming to visit, then dropping out of my life again.

okay bye.

yeah i know some people.
but are they friends? do they know me?

it was nice to have them visit me but in the grand scope of things, they seem so fleeting and short-lived. reunion with a friend i was once only casual and awkward at best with.

which is okay.

it's not superficial, but just short-lived. one-time feeling.

and then they go home, wherever they come from.

after all that, after summer break ends, who is left for me? who is actually in my life, here, and for the long run?

people may have heard of me, caught faint glimpses. people know that name.

victoria even says they like me.

but who knows me? 

who is my friend?

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