qotd ermagerd

"no don't say that... there has to be a way."

– quotes from the week, mostly friday.

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"but like, anything could happen."

"yeah, i guess so. anything could happen. but i'm not counting on it."

her heart was yearning for me, in place of my own.

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"why do you look so sad? you're living the dream!"

"oh. really?"

"don't you think you're living the dream?"

"um. i don't really know.

do you know??"

"....  yea i think i am living the dream."

"oh. that's good."

…

"funny how your dream city can turn on you and kill your dreams.

it was weird. i usually know what to say but this day, i had no answer for him."

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"what are your goals?? tell me your goals, short and long term."

"i.. hmm. i'm not sure."

"you don't know?"

"short term.. i mean, i moved into a new place so that's good, right?"

"yeah you right, that's a big thing that you should be proud of and we're all happy for you."

"long term.. i don't know. i guess i didnt really plan much after this. i just want to make it through the year, ya know?"

"that is okay. not knowing."

"i think i just want a friend. that's all i can really think of."

...

"so what are your dreams?"

"what?"

"what are your dreams? your life goals?"

"uhm. i'm not sure how to answer that."

"okay, tell me your realistic life goal, and then your scary, brave, big dream."

"hmm. realistic dream, i guess i'm kinda doing it right now. making a career in coffee and what not."

"okay, tell me your big dream."

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"you've just been thinking about survival."

"yeah. you're right."

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"so what's one thing that you think you could give up right now to follow that dream?"

"uhm. idk, i guess i could not do laundry."

lol.

"i can't really afford to follow my dream nowadays."

"no, dont say that... there has to be a way."

her heart was yearning for me, in place of my own.

"anything could happen."

"yeah, anything can happen, but im not counting on it."

"just.. don't give up just yet. there has to be a way."

...

"later, i find out that she wants to be a doctor. it was a dream that she, too, lost hope in, but decided to believe in again very recently.

she's going to pick up classes soon.

ah. i see."

...

"is that okay? is it okay to be just normal?"

...

these were all snippets of things i've heard in the last week and the majority of them happened yesterday. it's kind of weird. 5-6 different conversations with different people, all about the same thing.

i think this will become a story some time soon. like a story not on this blogspot but in my actual blog or something. 

dream smol, friends.